fall, fallin',

1) the most amazing feeling in the world?
2) expect nothing in return
3) realize it can be lost

It is much more than a risk,
but is a risk that I could've taken and grasped,
then fall into a dark abyss,
or preferably dig myself a hole and crawl back only when I've overcome my emotions.

All the times we had has been cramming up my mind and taking up all the spaces like the particles in a solid. Closely packed together in an orderly manner, not wasting any space. You've been taking up too much of my mind, so please, go away, live and let die.--

Mind me. I've just been thinking about dull facts these days, after looking at how happy
my friends are, how easy their lives are, I just can't help but think, why can't my life be like theirs? Or have I simply chosen the wrong path.

And it was not lust. Neither was it plain infatuation. It was just the horrible, pain-stacking, four-letter word.