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well for all it's worth,

SAVE YOURSELF
SAVE YOUR MOMENTS.
No, not for anything in the world.
Saturday, January 31, 2009

I knowww-wow-wow I have not been updating for a few days now, and it's mainly because I'm a changed person altogether, with a very very contrasting mind now (not).

(Monday) Seoul Garden + family bonding was great. The food was awesome, spent more than 2 hours there and believe it or not, I DIDN'T EVEN STOP/REST, I JUST WENT ON AND ON. I realised I'm becoming more like my mum these days, collecting SeoulGardentissuesbecauseit'sfree? behaviour. Tsk tsk I know it's cute.

(Friday) Millennia Institute is going to be the place I go to every morning for 5 days a week. After noon, met up with the 3 girlfriends for Sakae Sushi. Stacked all the coloured plates and bombed around $50! Made use of my $30 voucher and headed home.

(Today) Jammed another 2 new songs. Getting the hand of it, I hope? Show's another 5 months time, I have to buck myself up. Buckbuckbuck.
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Basically you, the person who is reading this post now, is bored to the core because I'm not in the mood to blog right now because....... I have no pictures. I'm going to start school in 2 weeks+ time. I cannot highlight my hair. I cannot wear anything I want to school. I have a slim chance of getting the VAIO pink computer now that I'm going to MI instead of poly.

I feel so organized.

Things I supposed/must do next week:
(1) Buy my Yak-Pak
(2) Buy a pair of sports shoe for school (compulsory :<)
(3) Have a hellofatime before school starts

OH NO I JUST REALISED I'M NOT READY FOR 'A' LEVEL. SHIAT.


I still heart you.
Sunday, January 25, 2009

Tomorrow's Chinese New Year, and people people, I'm stuck at home for 4 days. It does bother me at times, when I have nothing to do except play my (current) favourite game on my psp: Safari Hunt. I feel so bad hunting, then killing the antelopes. But what bugs me the most is that I always fire perfect shots. Sheesh wannabe. :<

So my family is thinking of fun ways to spend tomorrow, like maybe pool/fishing/zoo/seoul garden/johor shopping/etc etc.

Am patiently waiting for friday to come, also anxious to know my destined fate hehehe. So if you kaypo freaks want to know how I'll breeze through my week, here's the game plan:

Monday: Unavailable.
Tuesday: Unavailable.
Wednesday: (ahem) Training.
Thursday: Training.
Friday: Doomsday.
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Less than a decade more, don't go.
Thursday, January 22, 2009

You've let me down. Big time. :(

But you know what, I will still be there, I'll still be right there. Because this heart that you own right here, is weak, and is weakening.

Dian: Don't be stupid. You know he's yours. You fought hard for this. You know he means the world to you. You know this might be your last. What's most important is, you know he loves you too. Don't, give up.

You are my light, my sun.
You are my gem, my three-dimensional gem.
And I know I cannot let you go, not so soon.
'Cos I haven't seen the best of you yet.


"Perangai Thailand sia!"



Yesterday was an all in all great outing, Shasha treated everyone teh tarik and me, Coke. Paid 6 bucks each for the thrill of our lives. Enjoyed. Satisfied. Next Friday. Will be back. Right?










You are heart-throbbing, breath-taking.
Monday, January 19, 2009

It's quite surprising to know that you still care and you go all out just to make things work with someone who is already taken. Don't you think that you've wasted your time doing nothing and the popular phrase 'it's never too late' was never true? I'm kind of relieved that you turned your back on me the other time because I should have known better. You and your LG phone can just get lost.-

I had so much of a free time to look around my room just now, and I think I'm a pink lady. Pink bag, pink hp, pink psp, pink fancy pens. And I don't even favour pink. It's just a girl's nature I guess. Randomness bores me.

Dom is chatting with me and he asked me to check out the girl he's dating now. I bet he's bored too. I can't wait for Wednesday and the next day, training again. Anyhoos, yesterday's training was some sort bad for me, 'cos I didn't give it my all as I was distracted. I'm not sure distracted by what, but I didn't catch most of the balls and my shooting was disastrous. Coach Rezal: "Come on, Dian...." The words are supposed to be encouraging me like it always does, but yesterday it didn't work. In the train on my way home, I tried to recall what was distracting me and when I figured out that nothing was, I think I was just not in the mood.

To add to the misery, I think I was molested yesterday in the train. First, I tapped in from Bedok and there's this malay NS guy tapping in too. We took the escalator up together and I could feel his eyes roaming at me. Disgusting. So, I tried to stay away from him by walking to the further end of the train station but he followed me by behind. Super disgusting. Boarded the train, with him in the same cabin as me and standing close to me. Dropped at City Hall. Walked out of the train and he fugging pressed his body against mine. Super super disgusting. I wanted to cry/shout like a random mad girl/slap his face till his cheeks bleed but I remembered my new-year resolution. -.-"

I can't believe I haven't watched Twilight yet, this is a serious matter. YouTube.com will be my saviour. And have I mentioned? I'm getting bored with Fster and MSN is being a pain in the ass. Viruses all over wanting to find a victim. Sorry I'm not interested.

Alright I think my fingers need a rest. Nowadays I'm in the Grease mood. So I'm going to watch Grease for the 5th time, most of the time forwarding to the song parts.

John Travolta: Sandy!
Olivia Newton-John: Danny!
John Travolta: Why are you here? I thought you're supposed to go back to Australia?
Olivia Newton-John: We had a change of plans.
(Danny's friends crowding over him)
(Danny acts cool)
John Travolta: Oh that's cool, baby. You know how it is, rockin' and rollin' and whatnot.
Olivia Newton-John: Danny?
John Travolta: That's my name, don't wear it out.
Olivia Newton-John: What happened to the Danny I knew at the beach?
John Travolta: Oh I don't know, maybe you could find him in the missing persons ad, or try the Yellow Pages, I don't know..


22 is a big number.
Sunday, January 18, 2009




Firstly, happy 22nd birthday to my dearest cousin, Abdul Azim. (:
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Yesterday was greatly spent with fanily at Vivo, bought my Samsung Baby and you know whut, Daddy asked me whether I wanted an iPhone when we were in the bus on the way there. And I rejected. I am totally not bragging, but I heard that the iPhone is not user-friendly.

So after buying my Baby, we went to Ripcurl to buy for Azim his last-minute birthday present. No regrets recommending Ripcurl to my Mummy 'cos Azim promised to buy me the Ripcurl straw bag I wanted, heh.

So anyways, Muhammad Iskandar had started school as a very naughty primary 1 kid and he was all over the nightclub yesterday, crying his guts out 'cos the bigger cousins didn't let him destroy their pool game. Then in the end, he gets what he wants (as usual) and so, here are the FAILED attempts. He pisses me off and I feel like picking him up and tickling his tummy 'cos he didn't aim properly, his own objective was to just hit the white ball.




Imagine having him around. HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHA. OKAY GOING FOR TRAINING SOON, GOODBYE ALL! :)



I'd like to think that your heart is with me.
Friday, January 16, 2009


Today has got to be one of the days I'll remember even after a decade. And it is not because I have finally submitted my JAE thingy. I sensed a tint of regret because I didn't make full use of the 12 choices. I only made 7 choices. And yes, being decisive, Millennia Institute wasn't my 1st choice, it was my 3rd. 1st choice was Molecular Biotechnology (nyp). Every other courses chosen was under the Applied Science School and MI; Science Course. In aaaaaaany case, I'll just get on with life.
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Be jealous people, because tomorrow it will be my turn to buy a new Baby :):):):):):):):)

My mummy is watching Suria now. And you know what bugs me the most? The Datin Diaries ad. One of the Datin said "Oh yes I understand, your work is like your first wife and I'm your second wife." MALAY DRAMAS ARE SUPER CHEESY I TELL YOU.

PS: Make my day again, will you? (:


You won't know what I'm capable of, correct?
Thursday, January 15, 2009


I spent the whole night yesterday, thinking of what I am going/supposed to do next. I kept on flipping through the MI/JC courses. then turned back to the poly courses. Bet there're thousands of other teenagers thinking what's best for them.

So today morning, I went to TP again with Mummy 'cos she wanted to know more about why I didn't want the course I initially wanted. So, bla bla everything was explained all over again. I was so pissed listening to the same words that I heard yesterday. So yep, on my way home alone, I think the decision is final. I am going to Millenia Institute. I am going to take the Science course. I am going to take A Levels and I am going to try my very best to focus into getting in Uni.

And guess whut, I I I I I am so happy my parents give me their full support. (:
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So sunshine sunshine, it's been 3 days already. When are you coming home.


Please, don't make things any worse.
Wednesday, January 14, 2009

I was already up at 0930hrs today (unbelievable but true), bathed and went to meet Shasha at City Hall. Headed to TP, THE PLACE WHERE ALL MY HOPES CAME CRASHING DOWN LIKE A METAL BIRD.

And now, I'm still thinking of Millenia Institute, because of what the lecturer said just now. And to add to the misery, Grandma called Mummy just now and told her bad news regarding her health. I was waiting for the bus home after some time spent with Nora/Nurul just now when Mummy rang me. I wanted to just breakdown right there, in the middle of the interchange. But I tried to hold back my tears.

"And I'm saying this for the first time, come what may. I will accept anything that you bestow upon me, with an open heart."

That bunch of words above was posted yesterday. But right now, just after 15 hours of careful thinking, I don't know if I'm ready for all this. I thought it would make things better, but why must it be so unfair for me? I've never felt this scared before, scared of losing someone dear to me.

I know it's very wrong of me to say that it's unfair. Therefore. I will try my best to be with her every step of the journey. To give her the love she needs at this time of her life. I'm not ready for any of this to happen. I'm not ready for her to go. But I know You will do what's right.

I pray that You will give me and my beloved Grandma the faith to carry on and fight this. Because she is one of the people I love most in my life. If You were to take her away from me, I will never know what to do.

Don't take her away from me.


4 days ahead is going to kill me
Tuesday, January 13, 2009

I totally spent 3 hours on this skin, to make it look perfect and I (stupidly) pressed the BACK button, when I haven't saved the template! And yes, I spent another half an hour trying to recall all the html codes I altered just now, and waaaala!

Okay I am super bored right now and I get easily pissed off when random people in my MSN contact ask me about my O lvl results. I mean, get a life lah. You don't even know me and you want to be a busybody and ask me how's my results. And in the first place, how do you even know I'm taking O lvls? Hah.

And that paragraph right there does not refer to my dear friends like Gavin, Hidir, whoever else who thinks they're not in the wrong, because my mind cannot function now. Been thinking too much.

Going out in like, I don't know, 30 minutes? Meeting up with Natazsha and hopefully Nurul/Nora for some slacking around Bishan.

PS: I'll pay Singtel $1 000 000 if you call me tonight. xx


I've done my best. est.
Monday, January 12, 2009

Hearts beating. Palms sweating. Clock ticking.

It turned out that N's dream didn't turn out true. It wasn't dejavu, at all. I wasn't laughing, and neither was anyone else? All in all, I am not satisfied with my points, even though people have been telling me over and over again that it's good enough. I didn't even get an A for any subject, and they say it's okay.

My mind is filled with questions, now. And I am so uncapable of answering them. So, the choice is now mine.

Mass Comm?
Business Studies?
Pharmaceutical Sciences?
Biomedical Science?
Law & Management?

..Millenia Institute?

I really don't think the answer is in the grip of my hands. My mind is now nothing but a blank note and I'm still furious over my results. And best friends, don't worry we will never drift apart. (L)

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You are my gem.
Sunday, January 11, 2009


2 heart-throbbing days in a row, where else on Earth can I possibly find myself in this situation? :>

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How can I thank you enough for the first month you gave me? And the new elements of life you brought along with you to decorate the process, I cannot find the right words to say. Is it joy? Is it happiness? If it's not, then why do I still smile myself to sleep for 4 months now? A life with you, that's what I'll always dream of. And I'll never get tired of this dream.

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Tomorrow's results. Isn't that exciting. Should I update about it as soon as I get my results? Huh. Let's see, really.

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Never drift apart.






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It's about time I confessed something to you. I love you and always will Sarasuvathy. Don't forget me, or any of us. Hope you liked the surprise. (:

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Friday, January 9, 2009





(: The last 2 days was spent with great people.

RP's open house wasn't an exciting place to go to, I think we wasted our time there and we should've gone someplace better. The only reason why I wanted to visit the open house was because RP was the only poly which has School of Sports. And one of the course's cut-off point is 26. So me and Shafiq was like, 'Oh, that will be the last resort.'

So yesterday was out with Nora, Nurul, Shafiq, headed to TP. Then after that, we had free movie tickets to watch Bedtime Stories (thank you shafiqqqq,i love you sucker!) and have I mentioned in earlier posts that I'm in with love Adam Sandler?

And today I'm going to NYP's open house with the same pple I hope, plus another long-time best friend! :)

So, O lvl results will be released in 2 days time, and I'm fugging excitied (not). I want to know how well/terrible I did but at the same time, I am very terrified of not achieving what I aimed for. Wish me well, I hope I'll do okay, maybe even better. (:
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For the last 20 minutes, I've been whining to a certain someone online. I'm hungry hungry but I can't just get up and raid the fridge, 'cos I'll bet you a billion I won't find anything yummy in there. There'll be just plain cold water and some left-over coconut juice from yesterday. And I would've wasted 20 seconds of my youth doing that. Eh no wait, I think it's 30 seconds, (plus the sighing I planned to do).

I don't know why, but nowadays I have nothing to blog about. I used to have so much in my mind when I hit the 'Create Post' button, but the last few posts, my mind is nothing but a blank note. I always had something funny to post about, maybe even the small tiny things which happened in public, which only I noticed, but nothing exciting is happening. And people, I'm NOT flabergasted. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. FOOH AWESOME PAWSOME.

Ah something just took its place in my mind. Natazsha, I miss you too babygirl (-__-") If Saturday's 'plan' is still on, then I'll just see you tmrw. Ditch your work please. You once complained about them working, but now, look who is. Luv you.


Wednesday, January 7, 2009

Let's go to a rave and behave
like we're tripping simply 'cause
we're so in love

funny hat
shiny pants
all we need for some romance
go get dolled up and I'll pick you up


there's no line for you and me cuz tonight
we're v.i.p.
I know somebody at the door

I see that twinkle in your eye
you shake that ass and I just die
let's check our coats
and move out to the floor


when I'm dancing with you
tomorrow doesn't matter
turn the music up
till the windows start to shatter
cuz you're the only one who can get me on my feet
and I can't even dance

just look at me
silly me
I'm as happy as I can be
I got a girl who thinks I rock


and tomorrow there's no school
so let's go drink some more red bull
and not get home till about
6 o clock

when I'm dancing with you
tomorrow doesn't matter
turn that music up
till the windows start to shatter
cuz you're the only one who can get me on my feet
and I can't even dance

everybody here is staring
at the outfit that you're wearing
love it when they check you out

covers only 20 bucks
and even if the dj sucks
it's time to turn this mutha out

when we're together
when we're together
there's no tomorrow
there's no tomorrow
when we're together
there's no one in the world
but you and me
oh you and me
oh you and me
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Ehhhh I'm kind of addicted to this song on my blog. BUT NOT THIS VERSION. I keep trying to find the normal version of the song but there's only the acoustic version, and it's not even from the original band, Orson. grrr.

Okay so today I'm going to RP's open house with best friend #3 :D But my camera battery is low. How ah.


Tuesday, January 6, 2009



So basically I spent my Sunday night over at Grandparents' house, yep call me a loser but I love them okay!


One of my fingers was badly injured from Saturday's training. Thought it was just one of those normal things that happened during training, but this was fooooh terrible, I tell you. It caused so much pain, till I resorted to calling Grandma up and telling her that I was coming over. But... Grandpa picked up and said she went out with her friends. So I called her hp but... she had obviously forgotten which button to press although I taught her umpteen times: 'the GREEN button, nenek.'


While she was massaging my hand the traditional way...

Dian: Ahhhhhhhhhh! (SHOUTS)
Grandma: Pekik ah, pekik. Nenek sukeeeee yan pekik.
Dian: Nenek! Dah okay lah.
Grandma: Ah kau jgn merepek ah.

Wah she's one tough cookie. But now, my finger is okay already, the veins are already in place and the bones are joint back. Thank you, nenek! :D
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So basically, you can still say that my life revolves around tball now, trainings now and then. For today, 7.30pm-10pm. Sheeeesh. Get ready, little finger. :<

By the way, today's Anntrisha's birthday!, but too bad she's ill. Get well soon okay, and Natazsha, stop torturing your little sister ah. Okay, I luv you all you all! :D


Saturday, January 3, 2009

Just came back from 4 hours of training, and I enjoyed it! :D

Natazsha finally turned up today, but Saras overslept! I'm sooooooo...speechless lah. She'd better come next Tuesday or I will do something bad to her like.....

#1 kill her
#2 revive her
#3 kill her again

Bullshit aside, Coach overslept too! So while he was still on the way, we formed a big circle and played 007, in which I always lose. So me, Alison, Merilyn, Xiao Tan & Coach were supposed to dance. We were given the 'Kampung Theme'.

Coach: How to dance if there's no music.
*EVERYONE THINKING HARD*
Coach: Ah! I got it! Wait ah.
*RUNS TO HIS BAG AND TOOK OUT HIS HP & PLAYED THIS BHANGRA SONG*
Coach: We'll dance to this!

Sigh. Kesian la orang mcm ni.
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So yesterday went to Vivo City AGAIN!! Mama wants to treat grandmapa lunch at Garuda, 'cos they miss their hometown food so much. And have I mentioned? I found out that my Grandpa is a chinese Indonesian while my Grandma's dad is from Thailand. Okay welcome to Ripley's Believe It Or Not. Anyways, wah the food there shiok I tell you! And all the waiter/waitresses know how to talk like an Indonesian. Sadly, I didn't took pictures of the food, I only took pictures of myself, which is totally irrelevant to upload them here.


And yesterday I was so bored, I went in all the handphone shops, LG/SONYERICSSON/NOKIA. And I fell in love again...... with this!






Mamaaaa. Papaaaa; do that thing you do. Heheheeee.
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And have I mentioned that I bought MAMMA MIA! Movie Sountrack CD for $11.90 (best buy best buy!) and I'm so loving the songs. Yep, call me an oldie/jiwangzz but the cd's seriously worth my money 'cos fooh, the songs ahh, power!


PS: Noraishah, I miss you lah. He also misses you. Call me soon, xoxo


Thursday, January 1, 2009

It's the first day of 2009! :)

While I was out with my girls yesterday, I couldn't help but keep thinking about the good/bad moments which happened during 2008. Hypothetically, most of them were hurtful to look back upon. It was in the late months when I found the true meaning of friendship and life.

Well, you'll know it as soon as you feel appreciated by the people around you. Happy new year, friends. Happy new year, love. Happy new year, life. It's really a new beginning, for me. Cheers.
























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