Hi mummy.
I really don't know how to talk to you anymore; you don't give me a chance to.

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You have been my pillar of strength since the day I was born. God gave me life, you gave me love. I lived through it because of you. I was never close to dad, because you are the one person whom I am comfortable with. I could talk to talk you about almost everything. I realized that you had sacrificed so much for me, you had given me so many chances to prove others wrong, you had given me a glint of hope which was almost too fragile. I did not make use of it, I was wrong. I thought I was strong. You told me before that you know me better than anyone else in the world. But I did not believe you. I thought he was the one who knew me better. You had to leave me be and let me do my mistakes, just so I could taste my medicine.

All things happen for a reason. I thank God for giving me my last chance on 3rd October. I know it will be the last. I know I will never hurt you again, not for anything in the world. Mummy, I love you so much. Please take back your words, please believe me again. I swear, I will never try to hurt you anymore. Just go back to your own self, just talk to me. I miss you. I miss hearing the slight laugh when I hold your hand, I miss the bright glint in your eyes, I miss the times spent on the sofa with you, talking about Forever.

Please come back. I will never fail you.