Everything is falling in place now
I'm supposed to feel happy, I'm supposed to feel relieved of the pain I've been keeping in me all this time...


But why is it so, that I don't really feel free now?
One day left.
And I'm going to have my life back.
I should be feeling excited, but why am I not?
I guess the 16 months had really meant something to me, one way or another.

I know I'm going to miss you.
Miss you a hell lot.
No matter how irritating you get most of the time,
I think I can finally gather all the courage in me to actually say that you are someone to me.
And yes, not just 'someone'.
I'm feel very pitiful towards myself for saying this, but I really think I can't hide this.


2 years is a hell of a long time to wait.
And I don't think I can, anyway.
So, maybe I should really stop myself.
Rather, stop myself from feeling what I should.


2 years.
It's going to be a torture.
But I know, I know I'll be okay...


In addition, much better without you.