Moments I Remember Best

2009-07-26T20:02:00.001+08:00

MOVED TO LIVEJOURNAL, ONLY COMING BACK HERE ONCE IN A WHILE! :)

summer fling don't mean a thing

2009-07-25T19:10:00.007+08:00

dear virus, are you happy now?

Today is Saturday. The first Saturday in which you can find me at home after so long. Whoop whoop tomorrow is sunday! and it's going to be the last day I'm stuck in my room. I hope monday will be a schoolday for me.

Now it's daddy's turn to fall ill, H1N1 is a dick. It gets me worried everytime I see him coughing so hard and all but he always finds excuses to smoke and drink ice water.

I've been filling my room with my music which were my favourites way back when I was still a kid. Backstreet Boys, Blue, Westlife, S Club 7, oh and my personal fav Spice Girls. What's playing now on iTunes is Summer Nights by John Travolta and Olivia Newton-John.

to dom, hi baby heh heh please get well soon drink lots of water and oh ya I have 1 tamiflu capsule left, you want it? hahahahaha

Your workload

2009-07-24T13:53:00.003+08:00

I wish we could still be close friends. I wish I could still talk to you and share with you every little thing that happened today, and yesterday and 2 days before.

I've been having lonely nights, yes without you. What would I do without you? You're like the second closest thing to happiness. I only have you right now. And truth is, I have so many to share, because you've been gone for 2 days. 2 days was all it takes.

I wish nothing horrible like yesterday night happened. I miss you.

But guess what, I just became a fan of a group on facebook, it's called "Life Does Not Rewind".

All I needed was a call, that never came

2009-07-23T22:15:00.003+08:00

Just finished talking to Vicknesh on the phone! Thank you all for being there for me everynight, w/o fail, with all of your texts, short goodnight calls, and to mummy: your everynightwithoutfail kisses.

I've been better, although I must admit that this has been my slowest recovery from an illness so far, but I'm glad I've made it through

Dharnia, Vienna, hope you two are doing better too ♥

Life at home (okay maybe not at home LIFE IN MY ROOM), is boring. I can't wait till next week when I can enjoy the long train ride to school with Raudah & Vicknesh, can't wait to have my long-awaited lunch with Sheqal, can't wait to start mugging like a stupid cow for Promo 2, basically I just can't wait to breathe in fresh air.

Had enough of looking through RHD photos through schoolmates' photo albums on fb, it hurts yeah it hurts damn deep to not be able to attend our very first MI RHD celebration as '09 cohort altogether. Nevertheless, hope you people had fun!

Chem teacher is already sending me e-mails asking me to download stuff on Gaseous State. How excruciatinnnnnggggg

Swag it up

2009-07-22T20:33:00.004+08:00

Domo says:

if you die, i think i'll take the lift to the highest floor, then go skydiving with no parachute

Yknw, when things get worse and you think that nobody's there for you anymore like how they have been all this while, I can count on you, to make it all go away faster

You're like this magic wand I've been looking for, only better

Thank you for coming over yesterday, and not minding if you'll catch the bug, but for now we'll just have to wait.

CAN YOU BELIEVE

2009-07-21T14:00:00.003+08:00

IT'S SO FUCKING DIFFICULT TO BELIEVE THAT I'M DOWN WITH H1N1 WHEN I ALWAYS THOUGHT THE CHANCES ARE SLIM.

THIS SUCKS, MY THROAT HURTS, MY COUGH AND FLU AND FEVER IS GETTING WORSE.

OH AND HAVE I TOLD YOU, THAT I HATE PILLS. I HAAAAATE PILLS! AND MY DOCTOR PRESCRIBED 4 DIFFERENT TYPES, 4 TIMES A DAY. 2 PILLS EACH. CHEEBAAAAAIZZZZZ

Boom boom powww

2009-07-19T18:29:00.004+08:00

Been online with Zai since 1pm and we're going crazzzzyxzxz

trying to do \m/ okay maybe his one is nicer than mine, he said mine looks like hair tsk

But this one I win! Mine is super cute (x infinity!)

He's still trying! hahaha okay major improvement!

Okay back to GP project again, bye people!

(♥) with all my heart

2009-07-18T21:52:00.007+08:00

Went all the way to city hall to meet my darling Dharnia for just a mere 1 1/2 hour then she had to go off for some church thingy. But still, quality time spent, with much love in consideration. I love you dharnia dave

Then went on to meet up with Nora & Wk, went to Marina Sq's Burger King for (supposedly) lunch, but I decided to do my GP project first. After satisfying myself with the word-filled screen, I started searching for my wallet.

(glances at the time)
D: Oh fuck it's 4:05, no more mcvalue lunch this sucks

So we headed on to kfc instead. Wow I've had kfc in two days now, fauzy told me that kfc makes me fat but whadafurg who cares me is already growing fatter, another 2-piece meal wouldn't make a difference!

Walked to Esp and went to chill at the 'lepak-ing' corner, as quoted by Wk. nonsense!

(more pictures on multiply)

"Sometimes love comes around
and it knocks you down
Just get back up when it knocks you down
When it knocks you down"

Here to stay

2009-07-17T21:41:00.007+08:00

\\
I wish to judge you but I'm just not that type of person who does that

And aftr everything's done, I don't really fancy the idea of having your friends to stare at me all the time

They stare and that's surely enough to keep me (annoyed?) for the rest of the day in school!

Tmrw might be gng out with Jihan to start on our GP Project, we're researching on MJ. I'm listening to all his songs right now, after minutes of racking dad's old cd cases.

Training was good although I screamed thrice because I missed the frame idk why I wasn't really focused on training just now. :( kfc with ntzsha was all it takes to relieve my stress heh

Btw good news, I have (at least) a sub-pass for GP I've improved so much, usually my average score is 18 but now it's high high higher! heh and I passed malay too. It felt good to finally pass something!

If sorry doesn't cut it, then I guess it really is over

is it you

2009-07-15T21:53:00.002+08:00

One thing, I love about you

is how you make me feel
how you turn things around
and bring me back to square one, where evrythng else is perfect. just perfect

friday. friday.
And yes, nothing will stand in our way again.

you deserve nothing better than this

2009-07-13T21:44:00.003+08:00

I'm not going to let that big fat fucking bastard to come ruin everything

Have I ever disturbed your life? Have I ever talked bad about you to anyone? No, but since secondary school you have been doing this to me and I've let you off too easily.

Look where we are now, bitch. We're in different schools and we don't give a shit about each other anymore, so why are you still talking about me?

It's been 2 years already now and you still don't believe that I'm still a virgin? What the hell is wrong with you dumbwit?

So now you can like stop talking shits about me and my friends and I won't come kill you tonight. fuck off

No matter how it starts, it ends the same

2009-07-12T20:39:00.002+08:00

Went for a wedding reception earlier on with mummy at cck, it was the most prettiest setting I've ever seen I tell you. I felt like just walking up the pelamin and just kicking the bride away from her seat (and maybe the groom too since he's not that good-looking) Bitch is the only word you readers are thinking about now right right right! I was just joking, of course I would have never done that!

h a h a h a h a

Tomorrow school officially re-opens for Millennians. And what does that mean for me? I hope nothing but less of late-coming, sleeping in class, skipping lessons.

I'm through with that, I want to make sure I excel by the end of 3 years. Wah my mojo is out of control (although I knw I flunked all my subjects for promos) but I'll do better! I'll make it through :>

Awesomest

2009-07-11T22:58:00.005+08:00

Turned out that Dian M couldn't make it for today's gig. So headed to Raw & Roar @ FAD Studios with Raudah & Gee. Then aftr that, went off to meet up with the soccer boys Phi Vicknesh Selwyn then Zai? at Somerset. I didn't get to go to the flea market today! I'm very upset yes but that's okay I guess 'cos I can now keep and save the $50 my brother gave to me.

Boring post I know. I'm just confused. Again

fly, fly away

2009-07-10T21:13:00.003+08:00

Evrythng's on standstill.
Hve I said the wrng thngs?
And made it worse for myself

(I nvr wanna see you unhppy)

2009-07-10T16:08:00.007+08:00

when you said you meant it, I wanna knw, how many girls have you said that to? and I wanna count, how many times you hurt 'em, and see if they ever wanted to play revenge. how big is your heart and how deep are the wounds? what happened.

I do not want to be one of them you see
so I'm treating you a little less differently.

Work 'em boy

2009-07-09T22:12:00.011+08:00

Pictures of yesterday's outing to Sentosa are already out on my brand-new shing shang sheng (*makes sound effects) CUPIDTRUCK.multiply! check it out check it out yo

TODAY :)

Today I met up with Dominic and I was zomg, 1hr plus late! He wasn't angry at all, he was laughing over the phone somemore. Silly. Headed to Bugis and caught The Haunting in Connecticut. I was the only one screaming like a swine despite the other girls in the cinema. Then went back to Bishan and met up with Ntzsha/Nora/Saras and chilled at 187.

Tmrw will be my long-awaited lunch date with Aubrey before we head off for our respective trainings. It has been, idk, months since I saw him?

"And I meant every word I said to you. I like you. I doubt you'll ever like me back but oh well. I hve to meet you agn soon"

imy?

2009-07-08T21:44:00.004+08:00

HOW COME
HOW COME
HOW COME
HOW COME
HOW COME
HOW COME
HOW COME
HOW COME
HOW COME MULTIPLY IS TAKING SO LONG TO UPLOAD JUST 20 PICTURES?

Sentosa with the 3 girls was great, a very good way to relieve this stress. Laughing was all we did. Oh and plus Rau's mummy's fried rice, YQ's salad, and dian m's company. All's good.

(L) you three.

Oh ya anyway to view more pictures of today, you gotta wait heh heh cos multiply's being a bitch

How does it feel like?

2009-07-07T19:22:00.004+08:00

Since hp is not working :(,
Happy 20th birthday kak Farah! (L)

> wow, special birthday post for 2 cousins in 1 day

Shout-out

2009-07-07T16:46:00.004+08:00

Dear cousin, July 5 was your birthday
I know I'm 2 days late, I've got this tendency of forgetting people's birthdays while you always remember mine, zomg

I love you Noreen Ismail
If it's not because of you, I wouldn't have known Jojo and I wouldn't have gotten the best tutor in my life. xx

Do you remember?

2009-07-07T15:22:00.017+08:00

Physics paper was, (how do I put it?) good? Section A was very do-able and Section B... I had my moments :)

After school, trained to Woodlands with bestfriend Vicknesh & Khalis. Had early lunch at Banquet, then straight away went back home since bestfriend had to go to his grandma's house.

Exams are over for me as of today, I have till the 13th to enjoy, then back again to the books.

UPDATED PLANS FOR THE REST OF MY MINI HOLIDAY:

Wednesday: Sentosa with Dian M, Raudah & YQ (L)
Thursday: Physics class. 1-5pm. lsihfdgkfdjgmchksihumrsalgkhas!?!
Friday: Aubrey?
Saturday: Khai's gig with Dian M & Raudah, then off to flea market @ Singapore Art Museum

It'll go, it'll alwys go

2009-07-06T22:45:00.011+08:00

WORLD-BREAKING RECORD:

I studied Physics for 9 hours today. Mastered a few topics, but the last few sucks 'cos I kept thinking of fiddling with my baby Canon after studying so I just flipped through the last 5 pages and threw my whole stack of notes to one side!

Joined daddy just a little bit late for sunset, but they're not really nice 'cos of the stupid I don't know, forest fire? ksjdhfsdsdkjfhsdkgsdgfdsgkfjgd

Sentosa with Dian M, Raudah & YQ on Wednesday, I can't waaaaait heh. Friday might be hanging out with Aubrey after a very long time. And Saturday is Khai's gig at FAD Studios! Heh. Sunday, hopefully with Dominic, but that's only if I can recall his hp number? My hp's still out of service, people. :(

TODAY! HEHEHE I'M SO PSYCHED 'COS OF MY CAMERA SO I KEEP ON TAKING PICTURES I KNW I'M VERY IRRITATING BUT THE FEELING IS LIKE OOOH MEEEE GODDDDDD

Had Zam-Zam's Murtabak for dinner earlier on, I think for me, it's the most delicious murtabak in town? I don't know about you. Heh. And daddy took a picture of my forever-messy room and bluetooth-ed it to his hp. I don't know what he's planning to do with it. Haha, funny I still remember my convo with mummy before my olvls

M: DIAAAAN PLEASE TIDY UP YOUR ROOM!
D: OKAY! AFTER OLVLS. I LOVE IT THIS WAY. PLS DONT TOUCH ANYTHING
M: OKAY.

(after olvls)

(what you see is what you get baby hahahaha!)

are we, done?

2009-07-05T22:17:00.004+08:00

Impromptu study date with bestfr Vicknesh just now. He took me to Pastamania and paid like one-third of my meal. Strolled to Bishan Library and studied Physics but as usual, ended up talking 95% of the time. Mostly about boys. And girls. I love you :)

Met up with mummy daddy and brother at j8 for dinner at Pizza Hut. Anddddddddddd, daddy bought me a Canon 500D! Oh me God oh me God oh me God I don't know why the sudden good mood, see that's why I love going out with my dad. He buys just everything

all the, small things

2009-07-04T19:25:00.003+08:00

Highlight of today:

Watched home videos of us when I was like 4 years old, brother was 6, daddy still handsome and buff and mummy still sexy with pretty permed hair and spaghetti stripes. Family vacations to Ria Bintan, Genting Highlands, Bali; only the 4 of us. Now, daddy's always missing out on vacations 'cos of his work. How different. Nobody to kick sand at me when I'm building my neverclosetoperfect sandcastles on the sands of Bintan beach. tsk

Blogshoped like mad today. I am so going shopping after exams and I'm so getting a new slr from daddy. Meantime he took out his ancient camera and letting me use it how cool is that! He's just having a little trouble finding for the charger and the memory stick. Why on Earth he took it out in the first place, I do not knowww

to you,

I've never been in a situation like this, but yeah I don't think I'm ready for anything just yet. I can't open up my heart right now because I know it's not the right time. I've tried, but as you know I've just recovered from a heartache and it's not about the fact that I trust you or not, but it's just that I'm not ready to be let down again. Not this time.

I just want to say that I'm sorry if I gave you false hopes, I never meant it. I'm sorry if 'retreating from my life' is hurting you, but we could still be friends?

Friends.

My phone is a stubborn fucker

2009-07-03T22:20:00.004+08:00

Team YDC vs Weasley
52-17

Never felt victory after so long, it felt good.

Took group photo just now before match, but I don't know if Coach's gonna upload it somewhere. So here's last month's picture of our team (minus Vicky, Saras & Billion)

and, plus you

2009-07-02T19:42:00.008+08:00

Past few days have been nothing but hell for me

I'm not sure of myself anymore. I was never like this, I thought I've got a firm hold of myself when I got to know that studying for A Levels and getting my ass in a university was all I'm supposed to do for the 3 years in MI.

But now, I don't know, I'm not quite sure anymore? The past 6 months have been nothing but play play play no work but play.

I'm of no use. I'm too playful for academic, I can't fucking control myself I can't stop procrastinating I can't stop going out? I'm 17 for pete's sake and now my life's messed up

I can already forsee my promo 1 results.
-

There's friendly match against Weasley (I have no idea who they are) tomorrow. I'm feeling shitty now so we YDC girls must win them so I'll feel much better

PEE AI ASS ASS EE DEE

2009-06-30T22:05:00.002+08:00

I'm fucking pissed off with so many things right now

#1 the fact that I still don't get mathematical induction, I mean it's the easiest topic so far for math and I'm totally screwing up for tomorrow's paper, what more I don't know a single shit about graphing techniques since the make-up class was held during the last 2 days of school before June holidays, in which I DIDN'T ATTEND SCHOOL AT ALL 'COS IT WAS SELF-PROCLAIM HOLIDAY FOR ME HAHAHA NOW SEE WHAT I GET

#2 blogger is still fucking me up because I still can't upload pictures yet I mean what the fuck is wrong with you lah, I didnt do anything to you right, why must you do this to meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

#3 TMRW PAPER STARTS AT 8 WHICH MEANS I HAVE TO SLEEP EARLY TODAY BUT GUESS WHAT, I CAN'T, BECAUSE I NEED TO CONTINUE STUDYING.

#4 after tmrw's paper I have to start reading on geog and later on at night me is going to have chemistry test on atomic structure for tuition. I'm going to have 2 papers on thursday, geog first then chemistry, wow like ultimate value meal

#5 actually no more, but I just wanted 5 points so it'd look nicer. fuck it I have to wake up at 5.30 tomorrow

FCKING BLOGGER, I COULDN'T UPLOAD THE PICTURE AT FIRST, BUT DIAN M DID IT FOR ME

2009-06-29T22:21:00.002+08:00

Mugged with Dian M at Woodlands Library today. Was it productive? Well I think it was. Heh. Stumbled upon Phi and Imran along the way, it was like an unplanned study group date kind of thing? Then we went off to have our break (cough cough) and ordered the boys to take care of our belongings, and only came back like what, half an hour later? Thank you Phi & IMRAN heh I love ya :)

Rushed home only at 6, then started on my peribahasa shit, like omg there's 60 of them lah and tmrw only 10 is going to be tested? Pathetic right. Teachers=nice, sadistic monsters

Tomorrow will be a fine day, going to have breakfast with Arif (nyehahohu) then heading to school for my fcking 3hr-long malay paper then might be staying in school after that to study math with Raudah? We'll see. Either in school or the ever-so-distracting macdonalds.

PS/ I love you Dian M, welcome to the club. (allthesingleladies club la if you don't get it k.)

(L)-shaped lollipops

2009-06-29T08:29:00.003+08:00

28th June 2009 Charity soccer match (for Charmaine) between the ex-lions and celebrities @ Tampines Stadium THERE GOES MY STUDY TIME!!!

Mummy ended up not coming home from Batam on Saturday, she only came home the next morning. So Sunday was supposed to meet up with Jihan and Diyana to study maths and chem, but mummy came back home and was rushing like hell. Asked why and she said that we're going to watch the soccer match. Pissed off that I had to cancel my study plans and that I had to be out 2 days before my exam starts.

But it was all worth, it was for Charmaine, I didn't know that going to watch the soccer match meant that we're donating and every goal scored, $100 was donated by The Cage. The score was 11-5, ex-lions won, they still have the skills and stamina I tell you. I like. Sheikh Haikel scored the last goal for the Celebrity Team, but that was a give-away because the goalkeeper just stepped back and let him score. It was the funniest soccer match I've ever watched!

It was our lucky day yesterday and we got a quick snap with Fandi Ahmad, who was apparently late for his flight. For you fans out there, he's still as hot as ever although he's ageing, he's still fit and all. His 2 kids are hot I tell you, tanned skin curly hair hot hot hot.

I'm meeting up with Dian M at 11, we're heading to woodlands library to do some revision, I hope studying with a friend this time will work, I just hope so :)

Oh you took my love

2009-06-27T17:24:00.006+08:00

Fooh, I've been studying for 2 days straight now, so I should feel some sort, safe? Mhmm

Chemical Bonding. Redox Reaction. Atomic Structure. AP/GP. Summation. Binomial Expansion. COVERED!

Now I'm left with geography notes (the horror!) and malay peribahasa. By tonight, by tonight. Ciao!

I want to go on a killing spree one day and Gee will be the first on my list because he calls me fat everyday and I'd get paranoid all the time.Good thing is, he hasn't called me fat today but I'm just awaiting for the time he does. tsk, little girl

(L)

2009-06-26T17:34:00.003+08:00

Very outdated pictures, but who gives a damn? These were the first 5 friends I made, they've become my bestest in school. Once again, I'll emphasise, stay tight darlings

TRANSFORMERS

2009-06-25T22:45:00.003+08:00

you're my special influenza, special

When he's loving two

2009-06-24T23:16:00.002+08:00

Meet-up with Dom today was a disaster, he was 90 minutes late, and I was 110 minutes late! He bought me Blueberry Tea, my favourite! Nonsense boy.

Today's study date with Raudah was good, managed to cover another topic for math. Tuition later on at 7 was great too, surprised that my brain was actually working even after hibernating so long from Chemistry.

J: Dian! I'm surprised you improved so much.
D: I've not been studying.
*mum walks past
D: I mean.... I have. That's why I improved.
J: HAHAHAHA

Tomorrow will be a stay-in for me! I promise I'll be a good girl: wake up late, and then start revising on math again and study for my mini-test on Friday that Jojo's going to set for me. Tsk nightmare i tell you

High over you

2009-06-24T10:20:00.004+08:00

Yesterday was a blast. Today I was supposed to meet Dominic at 11, but its 11:27am now and he just left the house. Pheww I woke up late anyways. And now he's blaming me 'cos I haven't bathe.

Meeting up with Raudah and hopefully Dian M later on at 2, heading to National Library to work the fats out of our peanut brains.

So, THINGS TO NOT BRING:
#1 LAPTOP (strictly no distraction la kay)
#2 TOO MUCH MONEY (bugis junction is a stone throw away!!)
#3 CAMERA. But what the hell, must bring la
#4 HP. But what the dick, must bring la

My only sunshine

2009-06-22T17:55:00.005+08:00

I just love the fact that when everytime I meet up with either one of my favourite girls, I feel calm and serene, just like when I'm on the beach, staring out into the open sea...thinking of where these wonder girls are going to bring me next.

Meet-up with Rod in the morning was nothing beyond compare, his company has always been great and full of crap, but that's what makes me love him as a good friend :)

Cheryl's has yet to upload pictures of June 15th. Judging from fb, me x raudah x gerald x aaron are dying for the pictures. Such a snail. HAHAHAHA

Tomorrow is the long-awaited picnic with my 4 monkeys, I know it'll be fun oh I know it'll be hell lot of fun. w/o speakers, nora. (L)

There's this hot poll going on at channelnewsasia.com/singapore on whether school holidays should be extended. I voted..... Don't scold me ah people. One vote doesn't make any difference HEH HEH HEH!

Every girl's crazy 'bout a sharp-dressed man

2009-06-21T13:52:00.009+08:00

FETE DE LA MUSIQUE '09

Special thanks to those who came to watch my band and headbanged to the songs we played!

Nora x Nurul x Ntzsha x Raudah x Dino Castello (his real name, don't laugh!) x Rod x Arf Nrhkm & friends x Gee & friend x Dian M x Museey x Azie x Shafiq & friends x Khairul Marzuki x Joel & friends x & the rest of our family

Permanent

2009-06-19T20:43:00.009+08:00

Next 4 pictures, when I haven't bathe yet HAHAHAHA

Bestfriend came to my place in the morning and we studied, I did math and she did Econs, everytime our hphones vibrated we steal quick glances and then put it away. I had very late lunch with her at kfc, then we went shopping for awhile, I got my stuff she got hers, then went to every shop and tried on everything. Too bad we're irritating customers. Hahaha. Then went to meet mummy after her work.

D: Mama, I want the black Gucci spectacles. Will you get it for me? It's only $346/-
M: (looks at Raudah) Do you want one too? I'll get one for each of you.
R: HAHAHAHAHA
D: Tsk

I miss you, but nobody knows
Nobody else could take my breath away, like you did,
I want to move on, just as easy as how you did
but I just can't, I'm stuck here. still,with,you

Used to say I was sent straight down from Heaven

2009-06-18T19:56:00.007+08:00

Look down at the first picture, best friend trying to make fun of my eyes ):
R: Open your eyes the wideeest see how big it is kay?
D: Ehh big okay! Don't believe me uh, k come we take picture.
*snaps
R: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
D: Cb ah.

Caught Ghosts of Girlfriends Past with Raudaaah, I cried but she didn't. Titit Kecyk here (my minah name tsk tsk) is very not fierce just now, very gembeng, as Gee puts it. Haha. Another study date with best friend tomorrow. Venue: my place. Can you imagine what'll happen? Heh.

Boredom.

2009-06-17T16:19:00.003+08:00

then

Right Round

2009-06-16T15:57:00.010+08:00

Even after decades, I'll never forget those,
those who made me feel like Cinderella,
turn the 39 minutes train into a beautiful horse carriage,
and swooshed my life into a fairytale.
And those whom I regret, you're the missing shoe. And I do not want to claim you back.

I'm bored as a platypus. I need Ahmad Gee to perk things up.

Nothing in this world

2009-06-15T22:31:00.008+08:00

Today I took like what, an hour plus plus to search my closet for a top which suits the skirt. Me & Vick were late, supposed to meet at 2 but then we went out of our house at 2. Met the rest at town, Raudah Cheryl Gerald Aaron <3, went to have lunch and it felt good, just like the old days. Then went to play snooker, mccafe-ed, then walked around a bit.

Then everyone else had to go off home, so I called Rod but he was unfortunately working haha! For the first bloody time he's working shoccccking. So I called Nurul up and went to take Circle Line to Hougang and met my fav girls there. Ntzsha had to go off for tuition and then the rest of us went back to Bishan and chilled. :)

Pictures with the other group will be posted tmrw, meantime this is all I have!

All my bestfriends, stay tight <3

All a regret?

2009-06-14T00:47:00.004+08:00

Yesterday night was awesome, went home too late there's no train left so crashed at Kak Liana's house at Pasir Ris. I drank for the first time hahahahah, Jim Bean & Breezer. Been too busy to think of the odds, I admit that life fucking sucks sometimes but that's normal. Well at least for me. Goodnight everyone. Goodnight you.

6th-12th June

2009-06-14T00:18:00.007+08:00

The next time you go Kuala Lumpur, stay in Hilton Hotel. The bathroom rocks.

6th June

2009-06-13T16:25:00.003+08:00

I still cannot believe that my cousin is married but anyways, congratulations to you Yusha and your new wife Shafina Shafinaz aiya I don't know la I can't remember her name.

Yusha, please be strong and take care of your new family. I can't believe I'm an aunt to your baby already. Falling in love at a young age is very..tedious. Let alone marrying and devoting yourself to one and only one person. Good luck! Me still love you :)

Ripped off

2009-06-12T09:59:00.004+08:00

I'm back and back with the worst news ever.

You know, I have nothing left to say. It's like you drained me off my own words, I've used all the adjectives to describe you in my head yesterday while tearing myself to sleep. It just makes me feel better.

Rule #1: You,left,me,now,I'm,leaving,you

And then, the game ends.

I'll miss you

2009-06-06T14:38:00.003+08:00

Won't you promise me that you'll never forget
To keep dancing
Wherever we go next

Even a thousand miles can't keep us apart
'Cos my heart is, wherever you are

Bye bye ):

2009-06-06T05:30:00.005+08:00

It's 4:48am now, I know I should be asleep but I need to post just one more before I hop on the plane tmrw ):

My last day in Singapore was well spent with the people whom I'm gonna miss most when I'm away till the 12th. At noon, B texted me and asked if I wanted to join him for lunch and follow him do his project. So he was waiting for me at Bishan and he was sneezing all through the train ride such a pity I tell you I feel so sad ):

Alighted at Somerset to meet up with him mummy awhile heh heh and then went to Bugis and met up with Nabil & Farlini. Later on, An & Ira came. After their project, we went to have lunch at Macs then unexpectedly watched Monsters vs Aliens damn good show I tell you, me and B laughing all the way and we don't mind watching again hahah such small kids tsk tsk!

Then walked around, and I had to go off around 7 to meet up with Jojo at city hall, so I went off first. Met up with him, walked to esplanade first cos the rest weren't there yet. The ballet was a total waste of money (hahah lucky it wasn't me who paid for 'em I LOVE YOU DIYANA) but it was okay I guess since I had to only endure it for 100 unlucky minutes!

After that, went to send Ash home then me, gee, jojo chilled somewhere. Had fun with them as usual and then I had to go off at 11plus, since mummy noisy lor I haven't packed my suitcase hahaha.

B: (*coughs terribly) AHH let me die laaa
Me: Eh don't! I haven't get the best of you yet.
B: Heh heh heh heh heh heh

PS/ B, I know we've been arguing a lot lately because you're sick and you didn't get to meet me yesterday and yesterday yesterday but as you said, it has been more/less a month together now and you have been nothing but joy. I know it's difficult for a sick man like you *cough cough to walk down the streets of Bugis today just for the sake of spending time with me, eat your panadols and don't get drowsy all the time. I love you

The voice inside my head

2009-06-04T21:39:00.003+08:00

As expected, geography lesson was yawns boring! I bought Twisties and ended up finishing the whole pack by myself in less than 15 minutes. Anyone can beat that record, come find me haha!

Aidil was supposed to treat me ice-cream after school but ended up he had to go for his volleyball training. He wanted to pass me money to buy myself but as he said, it won't be as sincere as him bringing me to macs and treating me like a small kid himself.

Meeting with Dom today was cancelled too, he panicked and sent me a thousand and one messages when I was bathing and when I didn't reply he panicked again haha how cute. When I'm back from Australia ahem ahem he's gonna bring me out for breakfast, then have picnic during lunch at Sentosa, and bring me to an expensive restaurant for dinner!

Dian M, take care of yourself during your Gunung Tahan trip, I was looking for you just now in school 'cos I saw big huge enormous hiking bags in the canteen but when I asked for you, they said you went to the supermarket and I let out a tiny laugh heh. But lucky thing you called me before you left just now, because that's the only thing I'd definitely miss when you're gone. Eh wait, not forgetting our hot sex also.

I just came back from meeting Nora just now, bought my Cotton On navy green dress, B's gonna like it you don't know how much I was smiling to myself at Macs just now, Nora was so annoyed but sorry can't help it. Then followed Nora to Outfitter Girls and she got her dress and we're both happy :D

Tomorrow I'll be much happier than today I hope. Meeting B for the last time before I fly off, catching a movie and just spending time with him. Rest well B I love you k. Oh ya, and Raudah please get well soon too I miss you ):

That's what they'll always say,

2009-06-04T10:53:00.002+08:00

aubrey. says:
haha what you doing today

Dian loves Ralph Lauren more than you. says:
extra lesson at 1-3
then at night bday party at sentosa

aubrey. says:
no nid go lah
say you malas

Dian loves Ralph Lauren more than you. says:
fck you la i didnt go alot alr this week
lol

aubrey. says:
haha you always fcuk me
i love dian :D

Dian loves Ralph Lauren more than you. says:
haha kay la i wont fuck anymore
too painful is it? lol
k love you too :D

aubrey. says:
haha yes uh
finally your sweet to me!
haha

If only I can skip today's geography lesson. Total waste of time. Tsk tsk. Oh, and Khairul Marzuki, you better take care of your ligament and quit rugby! Hahah.

I didn't know!

2009-06-03T11:25:00.020+08:00

Dominic Keith Nadaison, no wonder girls drool all over you and when you skate bare-bodied they throw paper balls at you. But we've been friends for quite some time now, I hope you'd understand. And I'm sorry for keeping you away countless times, I promise I won't do it again k. I love you good friend :) I know you'll like this post, because your hot sizzlang picture is up. Haha!

Yesterday night was a disaster I know, and today is nothing less. It was the first time and hopefully the last. Fck rships, so troublesome tsk tsk. Okay I'm done complaining. You know I know we'll make it through lah B.

To add on to the misery, Chemistry extra lesson later on at 2-4pm. Tsk, tell me about it.

GSS is on. I want new dresses, shorts, skirts, tops, bangles, bags.

My ever so shiny star

2009-06-02T21:05:00.002+08:00

I'm going away from 6th-12th June people, mummy daddy aunty grandma grandpa uncle cousins, they're bringing me along with them on a plane and we're flying off to somewhere not so far away, but yet I'm thinking of so many people that I'm going to miss, but I guess whoopie! as mum says, I'm going to have a hell lot more fun there grrr.

Worst, I'm gonna have to give the hockey world cup match Netherlands vs India at Sengkang stadium on 11th a pass. I swear I feel like crying my guts out.

On a lighter note, I saw Dian M today, she's like the sunshine of my life man I miss her ): But I had to go off and not layan her karenah (hahaha!) because of physics lecture tsk tsk. Oh ya and Aidil still owes me an ice-cream yeap I have not forgotten about it yet boy I'm gon get you one of these days.

The whole of this week will be spent with B since Saturday I'm going off already and he said he wants to spend everyday with me 'cos he'd miss me how sweet I wish I could like get on a vacation every 2 weeks just so I could hear him speak like this heh.

Chemistry lesson tomorrow, 2-4pm it sucks but after that meeting B again and that'll cheer my day up, goodnight everybody!

Where's your picket fence, love?

2009-06-01T20:32:00.004+08:00

Sunday was like ninabeicb, we lost our 3rd-4th placing cup by just one fcking point, and there we were, sweating like pigs at the end of the game, not that satisfied with our performance but still glad cos we clinched 4th position under YDC in our first ever tournament.

I just realised that I've been abandoning quite a few things since I got busy. But anyhoos, I've managed to slot in time to watch bestfriend Raudah's dance performance at republic polytechnic on friday with B. I missed her so much to the extent I dumped B to go home with his friend and flew off in a cab with her. You did great bestf, i love you i love you i love you

Yesterday right after tball tournament, I went off to Azim's house at Bedok to wash & doll up, then straight away headed to Esplanade to catch Ramli Sarip with his band, Sweet Charity. It was cool, B was like laughing his ass off even after a few hrs when he got to know that I went for the concert, bloody hell. The thing is, mum bought the tickets w/o telling so how was I supposed to say no? But I didn't regret going either, 'cos it was da bomb since Ramli is like 60+ years young but his voice is still the nicest I've ever heard, the most raw yet refreshing type of voice. End of the performance, standing ovation and 2 songs encore, rock I tell you!

Today my physics mass lecture was supposed to start at 1, but I overslept and reached at 1.49pm with bad news, I lost the $10 my brother lent me just now and now I'm trying to avoid conversations with him haha. After school finally got to spend time with bestfriend Vicknesh after so long, fooled around and as usual mat reps really thought we're a couple. Train officers being a bitch these days, a fcking racist bitch, please leave my bestfriend alone, bastard. Happy now, Vicknesh? Heh.

B has been nothing but a pack of happy pills, 3 times a day sometimes more, I miss you I'm going off this saturday so please please meet me many times this week including tomorrow :)

Wordy post, I know, but please don't get bored, I promise I won't miss out on updating every night so I won't have to clump words like this again I know it sucks. Night everyone!

You tuck me in just like a child now

2009-05-29T10:40:00.005+08:00

I know we haven't been in the happiest relationship ever since we got together. But think about it, you once told me that it'd grow. It grew and that's why we argued alot, because both our feelings are there, laid out in the hot sun just waiting to melt away just like in other relationships but no I'm tired of letting it go all the time. As much as you said you want to salvage this, salvage what we have, save it from the realms of life, all I have left to say is me too. If you have already stayed strong, stay stronger. I know we can make it through <3

PS/ I didn't count the stars again yesterday night, did you

We could leave this town

2009-05-28T15:50:00.006+08:00

Just like little pieces of puzzle, you're fitting in perfectly, every part of you, seeps into me like you're supposed to be there, like you're supposed to be right there.

I wakey-wakey in the morning, took a straight bus from home to B's house, since he wanted to talk things out and he wouldn't have time to come down my area 'cos of school. We finally had our long-awaited heart-to-heart talk, with my hands in his, everything seemed to heal. I'm giving myself time for I know that nothing needs to be rushed because he's got me and I've got him. And oh my isn't that just splendid.

I want to count the stars tonight, I've been missing out on 2 nights because of my poor anger management, I want to feel romantic again, B please sweep me off my feet again heh.

Hockey SRC tournament tomorrow at Padang, hope we'd do just fine and at least carry on to the next round or something. But if we don't it's okay it's our first time playing as a team and we'll do better the next tournament right girls ;) The next day, tchoukball tournament! Fighting for placing cup, excited 'cos it's our first time playing under YDC and although we've lost Jass (cipaban for most of you haha), we've got Billion and that just rocks.

Getting ready to go out at 6, meeting up with Nora & Ntzsha to Queensway to get their stuff, since I have nothing to do here. All shagged doing nothing. I need to get MC tomorrow, any takers? :)

Life on the edge of your Gucci heels

2009-05-24T22:32:00.003+08:00

I know he's living in hell every single day
And so I ask, oh God is there some way for me take his place?
And when they say it's all touch and go
I wish I could make it go away but still you say

Will you think that you're all alone
When no one's there to hold your hand?
When all you know seems so far away
And everything is temporary, rest your head
I'm permanent, I'm permanent
- David Cook

How do I get you alone

2009-05-23T23:37:00.003+08:00

eff see you kay day for me today, but I managed to pull through.

Letting time fly by with Rod & later on Aidil, we chilled at Braddell. Talked and laughed like "orang gila mane" and we planned to tell everyone that we went to hang around at IMH. Okay inside joke, I know you guys don't get it.

Jamming again tomorrow, but without Tini. Now, when the hell am I supposed to start studying for my Chemistry mock exam on Tuesday and my GP Promo1 Exam on Wednesday? Cb.

"Even though this might ruin you
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn"

Let's Go Disco

2009-05-23T13:27:00.007+08:00

Forever, I said, Forever.

It cannot wait, I'm yours

2009-05-23T00:57:00.003+08:00

Early night for me today since B will be out till tomorrow morning, such a stubborn child I tell you.

Sheesha pictures will be up tomorrow I just think this picture Nurul took is cool.

It's close to 1am now, I think I'd better hit the bed. Jamming tomorrow, can't wait.

Nights.

PS/ I love you 3 munkees, better stay this tight in the years to come! :)
PPS/ Baby Raudah, cheer up k, don't let anything bring you down. xx

You Found Me -The Fray

2009-05-21T19:09:00.002+08:00

Today I woke up and enjoyed 4 missed calls displayed on my hp screen.

D: Why'd you called me yesterday night? You couldn't sleep is it?
F: Nah, just wanted to tell you that I miss you.

And I spent the rest of the time in Math class grinning to myself, despite the fcking difficult test on Mathematical Induction & Binomial. Suck uh.

There's no hockey tomorrow and that sucks because I want training I want training I want training! But no worries, there's still tball training tomorrow and I'm sure that'll make my day a hundred percent :)

2009-05-19T18:25:00.001+08:00

Yesterday MI students were given a "day off" from school because of our hard work and effort put in on Saturday's carnival. Mummy took urgent leave when she really had no mood to go to work since I have no school and she's just plain jealous (hehehe see see she's just like me!) and brought me to Zam-zam restaurant and we had our murtabaks yummy.

After that I went for club training and it was great, I love tball I love tball I love tball so much I have little or no love left for my boyfriend hehe. Today I feel sinful for sleeping in GP class, for "texting my ass away" (as quoted by Ashvin) in Geog class, and for signing out of school halfway through the day claiming I was sick and feeling unwell. Haha tell me I'm full of bullshit. I'll be a warrior next year, Aaron said.

Chemistry tuition in half an hour's time, GP exam is next wednesday, a little bit of everything is already enough to kill me slowly softly gently.

Boyf, I'm sorry for not telling you earlier
Thought it was irrelevant for you to know
And it's the past.
Which I want to throw away, badly. Ly

xx

2009-05-17T23:36:00.001+08:00

Miss
That's what I feel towards you now.
Wow, you really feel like a million miles away

MI Official Opening

2009-05-16T22:10:00.005+08:00

At West Mall Bryan told me that our games stall hit $1095 and we earned more than what we aimed for, which was supposedly 1K. I'm not sure if he's just joking around about the amount we earned but if it's true, I'd like to thank all those in my group for putting in (even if it's a bit) effort. Meeting up during the weekends to complete the targetboard, polishing up the banner painting, shopping for prizes, I thank all of you who made this a success. Although I went missing after my particular group of friends arrived. -.-

Today is quite a good day for me, except the latter part, I had fun with everyone, had 50cents tattoo k lame, I hit Raudah's leg with a stick damn hard while being blindfolded, I les-ed with Dian M and Syaz as usual, I boasted to Nora & Ntzsha about my school ____, my heart beat damn fast while watching the last performance which was like WOW.

He sulked a lot today. I had to tell him everything's okay.

Part II

2009-05-15T22:14:00.001+08:00

Phi rocks because he helped me with my Ben10 game on WJ's psp. :)
But he sucks because he tried to prank me on Msn!

Where we can be alone

2009-05-12T14:33:00.004+08:00

I hate this feeling I swear I hate this feeling

I never thought that stepping up a level higher with you would make me feel this different, this fragile, I don't want to be hurt but at the same time I want to try to love you as much as you love me.

Little did I knew it was this difficult this hard to manage this complicating to control, I like you I like you so very much but I just don't know how to show.

You're a smooth talker and that's the best thing any guy can have. Everything about you pulls me in.

Fiqqy, I've decided that you are my life, right now, starting right now, and nobody can take that away from me. Ly.

On the other hand, my MI carnival project is going to be completed soon enough, just need to make a little more amendments here and there, and I'm done with my leadership duties. I saw Wani yesterday at Causeway Point and it was kind of funny 'cos of the fact that I can recognize her and she can recognize me it's kind of nice to say hi. Do tag me Wani! I've been roaming around for your blog heh!

Tball tournament and hockey tournament falls on the same day, what a draaaggg. Lucky thing, tball tournament is on both 30th and 31st, so I can come play on the 31st. Yesterday's training was nice, after so long my hands experienced a series of blue-black but I love it. We've sent a team from YDC and I hope we'd do well for our first tournament together as a new team under YDC. :D

Today I gave school a miss because I couldn't wake up in the morning and I totally ignored my alarm clock which was obviously being a total bitch altogether. It's 3:01pm now and this is my idyllic routine when I skip school. I wake up late, I switch on the computer and spend time on it, then I'll start to complete my assignments. Speaking of which, 2 math tests this week, I'd better get on it!

You're my darling, angel

2009-05-10T08:43:00.002+08:00

There's a piece of you that's here with me,
It's everywhere I go, it's everything I see
When I sleep, I dream and it gets me by,
I can make believe that you're here tonight

Sound check yesterday was good, Tini was awesome although she forgot to bring her printed lyrics along, helped her through some easy songs, might be a jamming session with her in another 2 weeks' time and I must get myself ready!

I believe there's no school tomorrow, but Fiqqy & my brother said there is, oh or is it just because their school is different or are they like friends behind my back and trying to mess me up I don't know haha.

Tchoukball training tmrw morning, don't know if I should go. After that maybe project and yeah, definitely not at my house 'cos mummy will be working and there'll be no promised cheese pasta :( Sorry classmates but we can still have it in pastamania, correct?

The MI carnival is drawing near and I'm damn excited, what if it doesn't work out? What if our games are not appealing enough? That would sure suck and dampen our moods but I know this is a chance to prove myself as a leader (cough cough first time ahh people), and this is just one of the thousand ways to bond 09S2, not that it is not bonded enough, how tight you want it to be dey?

Ystd at midnight, I present a very fresh rose to mummy and kissed her on the cheek. :) The rost might be a little bit expensive even after sharing $$ with brother, but looking at her reaction pays it all off. I love you mummy!

> to you, I'm sorry 'bout ystd I don't know why I keep on doing it, tonight will be perfect, I promise. :D

2009-05-09T13:27:00.007+08:00

School has been great, although Physics is sucking my blood, just because last few weeks I've been missing out on double periods because of hockey does not, I REPEAT, DOES NOT mean I have to suck at these topics. Forces rock during secondary school and it has to continue rocking now! Haha.

After school has been well too, more than great, I must say. With last-minute dinner with the most cheerful person around, I think that, itself, gives more than a reason to be happy like before.

Happy happy happy that's how I am now I can't wait for Monday, Monday please come faster I don't know how you can, but I'll suggest one thing, maybe take a hot air balloon here oh wait I think that's just too slow and pretty ooh heck just take a bullet train alright?

Get me a passport to Heaven, I'd love that. :)

Nothing else

2009-05-07T18:22:00.003+08:00

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY TO SHEQAL LIM! :D

Balloon + hug package coming up tomorrw!

Gold for 2.4/ standing broad jump/ sit-up/ shuttle run, hope next week's inclined pull-up and sit-reach (fuck!!) won't get the best of me.

I don't feel like updating my blog these few days because I feel like being a stubborn bitch for a while, please tolerate me I know you are all nice people :)

Something just crossed my mind. I'm home damn early today and there's hockey & tchoukball trainings tomorrow!

Ultimate

2009-05-05T22:26:00.001+08:00

There is nothing more to life than having friends around you, knowing they're the ones who'll stay forever, they're the ones who'll really be there when you need them. Even fresh, pending, new ones :)

Tomorrow, as usual, equates to hockey. It'll be fun all over again, plus some seriousness too.

I love Math I am like rejoicing Binomial Expansion hehehe.

4 things I miss

2009-05-03T16:28:00.004+08:00

I miss life when it's all about going out and not looking at the time (what time am I supposed to be home what time am I supposed to be asleep?) I miss life when it's carefree, when it's all about the three monkeys I miss life when it's allergic to love and that way it'd never bound to get hurt

I miss life when it's all about partying and nothing apart from having fun

edited/

I've put in much thinking before editing this very post of mine. Before this, I had no idea how irritating one could get. How far a person is willing to go just to prove themselves worthy. Hey, if you're reading this, please note that I'm sick and tired of what you're trying to do. Maybe it might not include me, but tons of my friends are trying to tell me that you're up to no good, right from the starting of our friendship.

I didn't believe them, because I chose to believe you, and now it shows, and now I know who I should've trusted, now it shows when I turn to those who had advised me earlier on I turn to them for help and newfound trust.

Please stop making things any difficult, I don't want to walk around school feeling all drained out I don't want to feel like a "cheap must-have toy as quoted by shaqhil" I don't want to anymore but you're not helping me.

So go away, save yourself all this shit, because I'm done with mine. Good luck for your Anugerah stuff, people might be rooting for you and a lot of publicity will be thrown right at your face so remember, save yourself from all this before shit happens.

Goodnight.

Hot, not

2009-05-02T14:23:00.003+08:00

V: Kepala... Don't so bad lah. You're not so mean right? Still got heart. :)
D: Yes, yes. I still have one. :)
V: But if you want I can lend you half of mine. Mine very big :)
D: Lend me what?
V: Hahaha, lend you my heart lah.
D: Oh okay! You want lend me? GIVE uh.
V: Ok wait, lemme shift all the girls to one side, don't want you to turn les. :)
D: Oi! How many girls have you given your heart to la!

For when life is short, enjoy the music, enjoy the beats, learn the dance moves, spread the heat.
I'd like to thank those who've been a great company for me through these past few weeks, and I'd like to discard those who've been nothing but a pack of silly smelly frogs, and I'd like to scribble words like "too bad" for those who think they've got it all wrong (that includes you, classmate)

My saturday is going to be filled with notes and worksheets, thank God there's such a thing as appearing offline. I love my Andi Aziz today because he agreed to buy me oreo ice blend 5 seconds after saying he won't waste his money on me heh such a sweety pie.

Flabergasted Part II

2009-05-02T00:03:00.008+08:00

FAR EAST, ESPLANADE, BABY "I", SHEESHA, J8 MACS
I LOVE YOU RAUDAAAH I STILL PREFER YOU THAN FERRERO ROCHER :)

's okay :)

2009-05-01T09:01:00.002+08:00

The past week had been nothing but a blast, school/no school, hockey, vicknesh, dinner with soccer junks, it was good, right up till yesterday's match. We performed badly and this is what we get.

Bas: we may have the most awesome bonding off the pitch but whatever for when we cant even perform as a team on the pitch.

There's always a second try and I pretty much think that we'll work on it, as a team. Speaking of which, tchoukball tournament is coming up in May too, and Coach has been pestering us to start coming for trainings already since they're sending a ydc girl's team. So here comes the pain. I'll just have to divide time between hockey, tchoukball and most importantly studies.

Just got to know that exams in July, 'cept GP (it will be earlier i don't know why they have to do this to us!!!). I'm missing out on a lot, 'cos I've been skipping school (legally) because of hockey matches and selling of tickets. I might have felt like on top of the world missing double-period lessons and all but now this feeling sucks. When your friend collects your stuff for you, you bring it home to complete it, but you have absolutely zero idea on how to tackle the worksheet it sucks I tell you :<

I'm going to have fun with baby Raudah soon, just hanging around chilling, maybe after she's leaving I'll meet up with Vicknesh if he's done with his stuff today. I know I'll have fun, take care all!

Saw him standing there by the record machine

2009-04-28T22:16:00.002+08:00

We might have lost to NJC with the score 1-0, but it was our best and we fought hard. Next match is on Thursday, we'll have to prove ourselves worthy. MI might be looked down upon other junior colleges, but we're not weak. We won the first game, we lost the second, so let the third be nothing but victory.

Tomorrow skipping school again (can anyone please tell me how many zillion times I skipped this term?), going back to good ol' Kuo Chuan Presbyterian Secondary to sell the carnival tickets along with Jolina & Blessing.

People I can't wait to see tomorrow:
(1) Saras
(2) Vicky
(3) Nico

-- Goodnight everyone!

PS/ To the IJC indian boy in the train, I'm still looking for you now. *vicknesh smacks my head real hard

Revenge is sweet, but it's not my thing

2009-04-27T21:23:00.006+08:00

After school today was spent with Vicknesh, Khalis & Luqman outside the staff room. Then the soccer boys came. And as usual, full of funny crap. Chilled till 6pm then they signed out and went out of sch. Trained home with Vicknesh, Justin & Danni. (:

Hectic day for me today, (with some other irritants trying their hardest to piss me off) there's nothing more I'd ask for but to have Vicknesh around me again. Hah.

Ohhhhh and Sheqal really got me get well soon card and it's real pretty, hmm maybe because I like all my photos and he seems to know which ones I like best thank you Sheqal!!

Another dime in the jukebox, baby

2009-04-26T18:55:00.007+08:00

I thought I had everything
I didn't know what life could bring
You're the one thing I thought I got right
The only one I let inside

> Not knowing that all this was a mistake
A mistake I could have avoided, a mistake you could have corrected

Thank you Towfiq for spending the time with me in the train and talking me out of this complicated mess. I'm out of the maze already. And I'm glad I still have my friends with me :)

PS/ Vicknesh you shouldn't have, I saw his pictrs way before you did, it's just that I haven't seen him face to face yet. Gorilla-looking haha omg you're a bitch!

200th

2009-04-25T15:06:00.005+08:00

SICK. AND VERY WEAK. :(

A few nights back, someone who was once I thought really important in my life had taught me a valuable lesson. I know I shouldn't consider myself lucky because I'm not recovering fast at all, but what I want to thank you so much for is the fact that you woke me up from my hopeless dream. You made me realise that I'm not the type of person you deserve, I'm too laid back for you boy I'm too good for you I'm too nice for you, whereas you haven't treated me as nice as I did to you since the night you held my hand and sang that song for me, why must you turn into such a brat?

I turned you down not because I don't have feelings for you, but because I'm done with you I'm getting over you even if you still come up and try to make small talk with me in school. Pigs can fly and if that's possible, I don't see why forgetting you is such a difficult thing for me to do. By next week, full recovery is expected along with my bad flu and high fever, you're going to be flushed down the bad memory lane in my Storybook, and I'll never call the plumber to come dig you out anymore I've given you one too many chances :P

Reason why I'm publicising this is because I know you don't come here as often as you used to. I'm not being a bitch (although I belong to fb's bitchland government with Kiren as the President and Syaz as the Minister Mentor) but I think what I'm trying to say now is all nothing but true facts which you'd most likely agree to.

PS/ I miss Raudah and Vicknesh

PPS/ Sheqal Lim's making me a get well soon card!!

Take a look at this

2009-04-23T21:51:00.005+08:00

LIBRARY WITH RAUDAH, VICKNESH & CAMERA-SHY LUQMAN

PS/ I LOVE YOU :)

Everytime that I try, I get tongue-tied

2009-04-21T20:43:00.003+08:00

S: ..you don't know how I feel. It's exactly the same as what you feel when you look at him in the canteen, even if its just for a quick glance, you know something is happening right there, you know right then that what you thought you felt for him all this while was true. You're shocked, you're confused, but you still tell your friends that you'll be alright, that you'd find your way out soon enough. He has control over you and that was what I felt..

D: He looks better, that's what I noticed. Nothing more than that. I promise. Nothing more.--

There is no school for me tomorrow because I'm going back to my secondary school to represent MI and sell away tickets. I'm not sure how long, but Jolina said that once we're done, we can go off. But I still have hockey anyway so I'll still have to go back to school no matter what and that sucks I know. I'm lagging in chemistry now, I missed 2 periods yesterday because of the hockey match and I'm going to miss another 2 tomorrow I think (?) I can't read my timetable 'cos some parts of the jigsaw puzzle are missing life sucks at this point of time and I can't find the reason behind it :(

I feel like grabbing a few wooden pencils and just scribble down names of those I wish to kill if I were to be given the last 5 minutes on Earth oh or maybe I'd hijack a plane and do myself a favour by flying to Pluto and just lie down on my back and think of the 5 top happiest moments of my life, hah no doubt you'd be one of the 5.

Locked as a memory

2009-04-21T17:31:00.005+08:00

"Good times, good times.."

The taste of it

2009-04-20T22:43:00.001+08:00

MI vs TPJC : 2-1

VIKTORY :D

Just watching you fall

2009-04-19T21:43:00.005+08:00

Volunteer work in the morning was exhilarating at first, but then it slowly turned out to be boring, to the extent that me and Dian M went to buy ice-creams for ourselves.

After that, I took a cab to East Coast Park and met up with best friend syuk and his friends syahir and mamat. Rented bikes for 2 hours, but instead we biked around for 3 hrs and had to pay 3$ extra, and yes, we had fun despite the humid weather and syahir's constant heavy panting (refers to myself *smacks hard in ze face) Everyone had fun, I know I had, and I'd never have burnt my sunday afternoon any other way than be around these wonderful funny marvellous people :)

I'm done and if syahir is really not online, I'll hunt him down because I passed him my blog URL and he said he'd pass me his only after I've updated about today, but he's not replying my nudges on msn. Syahir if you're reading this, better tag me okay if not I'll have no other choice other than to kill you HAHAHAHA

Somehow it always comes back to you

2009-04-18T20:39:00.005+08:00

Geography lecture on a beautiful saturday morning wasn't really a good idea, in fact it was the worst idea anyone could have come up with, spent my time in Centrestage reading Ashvin's PS: I Love You book, it's darn good I tell you, although I fell asleep a couple of times not because the book is boring or whatever but the surrounding in Centrestage, I just can't help but doze off oh come on stop blaming me already.

Darling Jihan and me was thinking of trying to apply for the Cultural Exchange trip to Germany in the latter part of this year, might be asking Cikgu Z a few questions next monday since she's the teacher-in-charge, hope we'd get to spend 1 month away from home to be with hot sizzlang germanians haha, and furthermore, it'd look good on our SGC when we graduate.

It ended 1/2 an hour later than it was supposed to. After school, went to Jurong Point's Banquet to have lunch with my best friend Syukri. Caught up on alot and omg I love his hair now so long and he wants to dreadlock it! I can't wait, I'm going to text him later tonight to tell him that I want to be the first one to see him after he's done with dreadlocking heh!

He told me that his Nyp's orientation was the bomb and that there're quite few people who has the same taste in music like he does oh jolly he keeps on making fun of my uniform, saying that I kentszz have to wear uniform to school and all I hate him for that.

After that he went to Bukit Batok for Gamelan and I went to Yew Tee to meet up with Dian M and Adawiyah to complete our malay project. Ah powerpoint sucks why must it always be powerpoint?

Then around 6, I trained to City Hall and met up with Rod, Fiqo and his girlfriend. Went to Peninsula to get my turf shoes, Lotto green and black :), and then as usual nothing is enough for me so I bought a pink Adidas bottle someone please come tell me to stop buying pink things okay.

Oh ya and the happiest part about today is that Rod asked me if I want his red Diadora soccer bag since he's not playing for Geylang United anymore and I said yessssssssssss marvellous!

Tomorrow going to wake up at such an ungodly hour but for the sake of CIP points, I'll try to think (+)ve k. Goodies I'm done now I can finally rest take care sweet ducklings!

Fall, out of my hands, out of my heart

2009-04-17T20:37:00.004+08:00

S: You seem recovered. He seems like he's recovering.
D: Shows my act is good. Oh he's fine, don't worry. I'll be okay.--

Today me, raudah, nesh, selwyn were so close to skipping assembly because we thought we'd be late but turns out we did make it in time for assemblyz

Cikgu Z was in a bad mood today and as usual teachers in bad mood are nothing but green scary hulks. Had peribahasa test and scored 16/20 im so stupid for not studying properly before the test fck.

After hockey I was so shagged I told Sakinah, "woah lucky tomorrow there's no sch-". And then I stopped. "Eh no, there is school tomorrow omg."

I didn't bathe after hockey today mainly because #1 I forgot to bring mua towel #2 I don't have Dian M to sing along with in the shower room today because she ditched me and left hockey early today for some movie stuff.

Geography workshop tomorrow for 2 hours omg can you feel the pain? Supposed to have hockey training after that, the last one before our first a-division game on Monday against TPJC, but me and Dian M can't make it because of the stupid fckng malay project which we have to present on Wednesdy. And tomorrow I'm finally getting my turf shoes fooh the joy of it I tell you!

I suddenly seem to have a lot to update on today, there're other things I wish to update, maybe I should get another blog and make it private just for me and nobody else, just to satisfy myself and let out everything I feel, everyday in school, when eye contact means everything and walking pass without greeting each other is hurting, a lot of people already know the way to my blog I wonder why they visit too much. Too much is not good.

I've been thinking about happy thoughts for the past week and it works I tell you, I'm bouncing around in school like usual. Nora has started her orientation and I pity her for not having anything to look forward to everyday unlike me haha good, so she won't forget me easily :)

Volunteering on Sunday from as early as 0630hrs-2200hrs for the Sprint Triathlon at Changi Beach Park will be tiring I know but with Dian M with me for the whole stretch of the day will be exactly what I'll need! Oh and wednesday I won't be going to school, instead I'll be going back to KCPSS to promote the MI carnival thingy and I don't know what's going to happen for the rest of the day but I hope it's freedom for us hehe.

Enjoy the rest of the night readers :)

Sweetest sadness in your eyes

2009-04-16T22:08:00.004+08:00

I diligently stayed back after school today with Dian M and Adawiyah to complete our malay project which was unfortunately due tomorrow. Then around 6 I went to West Mall to meet up with supposedly my darlings Raudah and Vicknesh, but then turned out to be more ++ a few soccer boys, then coincidentally Phi and Siva came to Burger King and had their lunch so we all waited for them to finish eating then after that trained home together, we filled the train with our laughters so loud I tell you and Vicks I have 6 packs already really really I just checked HAHAHA.--

Days are getting better and better, I love the way my life works right now, it's awesome to have friends like Raudah and Vicks around me all the time it's really pathetically a joy :D

Omg tomorrow is Friday. I dread malay class but hockey will be superb, as always, sweet dreams everyone!

Goodbye, my almost lover

Goodbye, my hopeless dream

I'm trying not to think about you

Can't you just let me be?

So long, my luckless romance

My back is turned on you

Should've known you'd bring me heartache

Almost lovers always do

For ever

2009-04-14T18:34:00.004+08:00

I think life is only pretty when one moment ago you suddenly realized that you actually have people who got it all under control when you're going krazy

Do you?

2009-04-13T22:32:00.002+08:00

Me and family just finished celebrating Andi Aziz's 19th birthday. Had Pizza Hut and oooh yummy glorious cheesecake, without candles :(, but it's okay he still made his wish!--

Haziq

Hey hey I really really don't know who you are, even when you said that you're the one who made my birthday a memorable one. The people who made it memorable were my dear friends and a guy which doesn't go by the name Haziq. So will you please tell me who you really are? If you don't want, then it's okay. Hope to hear from you soon, (whoever you are?)
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Coach Mel texted me today and asked if I wanted to go for training under YDC. And of course I said yes, and I'm happy I have Natazsha along too :) I will only be able to go for training after a-division 'cos right now my schedule is damn packed with hockey trainings and I'm sure there's more to come as the tournament draws closer. So, I'll be back for tchoukball every Friday, starting some time next month! :D

They say we're young and we don't know

2009-04-12T19:55:00.002+08:00

I've just finished jamming with daddy and brother, learnt 4 new songs today, Lady Marmalade (the classic one, not the Sally's song ok), I Got You Babe -Ub40, I Love Rock N Roll by (don't know who but almost every singer has their own rendition but ours is ze best), Sharp-dressed Man -David Cook.

Performance in less than 3 months time, I will try to make sure that it'd be much much better than last year's or the year before, I'll rock this year's :) --

It's 8:07pm now and I want to study chemistry since tomorrow's the re-test for Mole Concept, omg I hope I'd do good this time round and at least get a PASS. If not, my head will sure be on the chopping board this time.

Me and Dian M won't be able to go for the morning hockey tomorrow because of the stupid dontgoalsonoloss MI mart talk. Fooh lucky there's hockey after school to back everything up!

PS/ My new Casio graphing calculator makes me feel smart bye bye
PPS/ Friends, tomorrow will be a better day I promise (:
PPPS/ Cheer up darling Raudah, you've got my back, call me if you need me, xx

Sometimes a flower doesn't grow

2009-04-11T20:39:00.009+08:00

While running on the pitch just now trying to tackle one of the Crescent Girl's forward, I suddenly thought of tchoukball and how I missed sweating like a pig in Ping Yi Sec's hall, trying so hard to catch every ball thrown by the right and left wings. I missed those fun exciting times, I miss Malacca trip, I miss the girls, I miss Farah and how we used to complain about our weakly taped fingers whenever Coach Rezal smacks the ball real hard onto our hands. :(

After hockey was supposed to meet up and spend the rest of the day with my 3 babygirls but the plan was ruined, I only managed to walk around town with Nora :(

I think it's growing more difficult now to arrange a well-proper day out with them now, everyone's busy with their own stuff. I'm not being sentimental I swear but isn't it already obvious that the thing we're most afraid of is happening slow..ly? Girls, stay (+)ve alright, hope to see you 3 monkeys soon.

My pet in fb is improving. Race after race. From 3rd position, to 1st position. My pet's name is so complicating I can't even remember her name myself how pathetic is that, you tell me!

Departure of youth

2009-04-10T21:20:00.005+08:00

Sometimes being able to rewind and turn the hands of the clock again and again would be the only crazy thing in the world that I wish to do

Especially when everything does not seem to fall in place, when you think that the one and only person who said that they've got your back will never be there anymore.

Time is very slow. And you are not making it any faster.--

(1) Saturday morning = Hockey
(2) Saturday lunch = Hidayat
(3) Rest of Saturday = My 3 babygirls

I gave you up, up and away

2009-04-10T10:54:00.002+08:00

"Semuanya telah berakhir
antara diriku dan dirimu
Takkan ada cinta
seperti yang dulu"

Exhaustion

2009-04-09T21:45:00.002+08:00

Now I realise how quickly people can change, from being the most sweetest person on Earth, to being regarded as the most ungrateful person around. I now understand why things had to change, it was because people come and go, people you love most are indecisive yes but guess what? It doesn't matter, I'll now continue playing my game while trying to forget who you were back then and bounce around happily like before.

I love Raudah because she's trying her hardest to keep up with my sob stories oh come on I know you love me don't worry about it I will (by hook or by crook) let it go. I love Vicknesh because he's still full of crap even when I'm so deep deep down six feet under he's still there to make me laugh. I love Aaron because he doesn't mind being stuck in the middle. I love Dian M because she and I always have nothing to do and that'll result to very silly solutions. I love Shaqhil because he loves texting me "SMILE K.:D" every now and then and that's honestly the best therapy in the world.

I love my friends forever forever I think I'd die without them like right now. Friday is tomorrow and tomorrow is good. Saturday is hockey and hockey is good. Goodnight all

Look out baby, look out

2009-04-07T22:37:00.004+08:00

I am a pretty much contented kid today because I gave school a miss, went to the polyclinic to get our MCs, ran away from monsters at Jurong Point's Banquet and went to watch Paul Blarton: Mall Cop and Confessions Of A Shopaholic with Raudah and Vicknesh.
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I realise I'm being a brat for not coming to school because of unreasonable reasons, but it's okay, time will heal, I wonder if anyone noticed an empty table today in the canteen, did any of you noticed, did YOU noticed?

I wish I could read through your mind right now. I want to know what's your next move, are you going to drift away into the far horizons or are you still going to stick to your plans (whatever that is).

Because today my dear friends, them 3 I love the most showed me the true meaning of friendship and eternal love (cliche I know). They also taught me the most important thing, to forget but not forgive. No grudges left behind. I hope tomorrow will be better.

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Hockey with RJC girls tomorrow at CCAB. My stomach hurts it's like crying screaming out of them ribe I wanna kill myself. :(

It doesn't even matter

2009-04-06T22:35:00.002+08:00

Today was the most torturing day in school. Time crawled by so slowly. At times, I just felt like burying my head six feet under and not wanting to come back up only until the end of the day.

Why why must you do this?

Jihan: Don't frown because it ended. Smile because it happened.
Me: I feel happy when I know you've got my back and I've got yours. Thnks alot love.

Because in the end, I know you're at loss, not me. I love you Raudah, Vicknesh, Aaron, Jihan, Diyana, Ashvin, Dharnia. You've all been nothing but a pack of happy pills for me today. (:

Forgiving is not forgetting, it's letting go of the hurt

2009-04-05T10:19:00.002+08:00

Sometimes, it may or may not be about letting go, it's more like I've done my part and you've done yours.

But you can bet that I'm still yours.
Still yours.

You spell different

2009-04-04T17:50:00.009+08:00

Sometimes I think that the sunset is either just beautiful or is a silent killer. Its usually these saturday afternoons that I'll be taken in by the orange sun laid out in the bronze sky, thinking of happy thoughts and wondering what'll happen in the next few days, is my prince charming going to come riding on a beautiful white horse already?

Yesterday night I didn't need a sunset. All that I needed was just some plug-in music blasting through my ears, not knowing what else to do except stare blankly at my ceiling. What's next? Hmm..

N told me today that I am indeed his red red fresh cherry, and that was the only thing I needed today, apart from Dian M's lovely company.
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I had a very filling lunch today at Jurong Point's Banquet after hockey today :) And I'm still hungry. old macdonalds had a farm ee ya ee ya yo and on his farm he had a cow ee ya ee ya yo

Rain rain go away

2009-04-03T22:40:00.004+08:00

One thing I love about Fridays is that school ends pretty early and then just like a cherry on top of my ice-cream, there's hockey.

Today we spent about +/-1 hour in the school gym, trying out almost everything there and Coach loves to test our abilities I tell you. From 20 slabs to 120 slabs? Isn't that just great. After gym, went down to the pitch and did our basics and then after that we have to pass through the defenders. My personal favourite :)

Tomorrow will be an early morning for me, I'll have to reach Boon Lay at 0930, friendly match with Crescent Girls' at NTU, then maybe training. After that gonna bathe and I've already made plans with Dian M and maybe my darling Raudah to get our huge gigantic enormous Diadora bags, since Dharnia and Vienna can't tag along :( Not trying to be typical malays but I think it's really big and it would be really nice to stuff in everything, schoolwork + hockey stuff on wednesdays and fridays!

Lately before going to sleep, I've been looking forward to the next school day and hoped the night would fade away faster. But now when it all comes down to this, I'm not sure if feeling insecure a good thing or a bad thing? With so many people chasing you for your voice, in or outta school, am I just among the rest? What do you think of me, where do you think this will head? What are you true feelings, if there ever were? And why do you like to gaze at me like that?

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Basically,

if given a choice, where'd you categorize me? At the lowest, in the middle, or at the top of the list, just like... the cherry?

Lovely Lovely

2009-04-02T22:00:00.010+08:00

31st March:

Raudah, Cheryl, Vicknesh, Gerald and Aaron came to surprise me at Bishan MRT station in the morning with a pretty colourful cake and a very perfect-lit candle. They bought me a bag from Check.

Dian M made me a very pretty card, the prettiest one I ever owned.

Suhaila bought me a pretty pink rose.

Abang got me a recordable? teddy bear, yes tell me about it. I looked happy when I took the present from him but after that one-on-one consultation in his room. Doomed boy, purposely buy me a teddy bear of all useful things! -.-

Dad sent me a message: Happy birthday lah!
I replied: Present?
Dad replied an empty message.
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Went to the canteen and fooled around with some soccer boys, then me, Raudah, Cheryl, Vicknesh went to West Mall's pastamania and had our early dinner.

Reached home at 8.30, thought my birthday was coming to an end real soon, but my best friends, Nora, Natazsha, Nurul (1314 really really haha) came all the way to my house to surprise me with a yummy oreo cake!

You guessed right, I cried.
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I would like to say big thanks to all who made 31/03 the best birthday ever.

Mama, Papa, Abang, Nora, Natazsha, Nurul,
Raudah, Cheryl, Vicknesh, Gerald, Aaron, Dian M, Hidir
Nizar :), Dharnia, Vienna, Syazana, Suhaila, Iban, Syaa
Arepp, Hidayat, Hykel, Farhana, Farhan, Izzat, Syakil, Yan Qing
Annabelle, Kai, Khalis, Justin, 09S2, Haziq, Celeste, Syakila

And every other little earthlings out there who wished me happy birthday, not knowing how much they made my day a little more meaningful.

Ok I seriously can't wait for hockey tomorrow. I want to work-out more in the gym with my darling dian! And then bathe together *rubs hands gleefully

Another seventeen candles

2009-03-30T21:16:00.010+08:00

LAST FRIDAY:

Natazsha's small birthday celebration turned out great, the spaghetti we cooked was "top notch" and so are the fried food! The candles were well lit (not), and the atmosphere was perfect. And oh ya, some other pictures of last Friday at school, too. The birthday pictures I promised!

After school, went to finish up my VA2 with the help of my darlings Diyana and Jannah. Nizar went to solat somewhere near the hall, then after packing up, I waited for him.

We went to Woodlands to have dinner (his treat), then train-ed to Ang Mo Kio to walk around. Waited for bus 162 straight home but 162M kept on appearing instead. Changed our minds and went back to the mrt station and train-ed to Bishan.

Thank you for the day Nizar :)
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Seventeen candles

2009-03-29T12:55:00.003+08:00

And happy belated 17th to my dear friend, Dominic Keith Nadaison!

Sorry I couldn't make it to your chalet, I still love you as much :) --

Thing you'll need to do:
1) Be a good boy
2) Go find a girlfriend
3) Stop making trouble
4) Keep rockin'.

Wish you were here

2009-03-29T12:12:00.003+08:00

I reached home after midnight yesterday, and lazily threw myself on the bed. Thinking about the whole day over and over again, not getting tired of any little parts, smiling away at the slight movements in the dark theatre. Chips, a mix of gassy drinks and Nizar's company was all that I needed for that night.

Awang Belanga was worth my Saturday night. They were funny, professional and I enjoyed every second of their 2-hours performance! Songs were awesome :) And first time MI was infested with matsz.
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The hockey match in the morning was manageable. Although we lost to SAJC 1-0, we were considered quite good 'cos SAJC was supposed to be the champion or something for A Div girls' hockey. And congratulations to you Hidayat, and also the Sengkang sec boys for winning the North Zone B'division Soccer Championships. (:
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Okay I'm off to do my homework now and oh shit, I lost my VA2, sure going to die on Monday, yes yes tell me about it. Okay lah I won't die DIE, but I think I'd have to stand at the back of the class tomorrow. Lame yes I know, but teachers have the last say.

Cheers!

"Let's play a game of love. If I win, you're mine. Otherwise, I'm yours."

2009-03-27T22:19:00.004+08:00

I am a damn happy kid today.

1) My classmates bought me/Srini/Maxin a birthday cake and sang for us bday song and all during break (photos will be uploaded as soon as Jann uploads them into her fb)
2) Right after, I realised that one whole week of wait was worth something
3) I got a date with Nizar tomorrow to catch Perbayu at 8pm
4) Tball was excellent, pictures were taken with the winning girls' team and the '08 boys' team
5) I can predict what's going to happen tonight

You might be saying, only 5 points, and I'm already happy?

Never thought it'd come my way. I love life right now, it gives me a very nice heartwarming feeling. Tomorrow is the seniors' hockey match against SAJC, all the way at Bukit Timah. And it will be a very early morning for me tmrw zomg but it's okay, anything for hockey (: